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Wednesday, May 27, 2009

self reflection.

Behold, thy Lord said to the angels: "I will create a vicegerent on earth." They said: "Wilt Thou place therein one who will make mischief therein and shed blood? Whilst we do celebrate Thy praise and glorify Thy holy (name)?" He said: "I know what ye know not."

Surah Al-Baqarah 2:30

I have only created Jinns and men, that they may serve Me.


Surah Az-Zariyat 51:56

xoxo

Saturday, May 23, 2009

faeces.

I've been wanting to rant about so many things since two weeks ago.
I have no idea what has been stopping me.

I worked the afternoon shift yesterday, which finished at 10 pm.
Did not have a good start to that, though.
Ergh.
Deep breaths, Melissa.
Ergh.

I drove the family to Kuala Pilah last weekend just to take a look at where the sister's campus is and how it looks like.
It's about a two hour drive from home, and it's a new campus in which the sister would be the first batch to stay in it ! Cool kan.
The road leading to the campus was not cool though, I had to avoid cow dungs the whole way in !

The boyfriend was forced to come down to meet me.
The next time we would get to meet would be in July. Our engagement next month does not count.
Linn treated us to dinner at Cozy House, Ampang Park.









Had dinner with Annisa on Thursday night.
The past two meet ups we had have both been a bit emotional.
Sigh.

These past few weeks have been (very) stressful.
I have quite a lot on my hands. It does not help that I procrastinate well, too well if I may say.
Now that everything is almost due, I have to finish all up even if it means staying back after work until late at night. Cramming to the max.
I only have next week ! That's one week for me to finish collecting data for my research and complete all my PCIs for the cases I have halfway clerked !
I have no other way lah.
I should not have left things to the last minute.
The blame's on me and I guess that's making me even more tensed up.

My workplace will be having a Pharmacy Farewell Night Potluck Dinner tonight. A farewell for the UiTM diploma trainees who will leave at the end of June and for the UiAM PRPs who will follow suit a month later. It might be a farewell for us too l guess, even though we have about five months to go, I doubt they would wanna have another farewell thingy just for us.
So yeah, they've made it compulsory for all of us to go.
And I will have to fry noodles.
I have paid for Lene to tag along.

Hmmm.
I really enjoyed the Saturday the Gombak people and I spent together two weekends ago. Sigh. That's a good sigh ok, you know the kind you do when you reminisce about good things ?
We took super beautiful photos !











I won't be able to make it for tomorrow's lunch as I'll be in Putrajaya doing my work that I can. Sigh.

I have a few 'missions' I need to complete.
1. Finish collecting research data by next Friday. Boleh ke ? *gulp*
2. Finish clerking clinical cases by next Friday. Boleh keeeee ?? *gulp*
3. Pick a case and prepare my presentation slides. I hope they don't ask me to present next week, I'll just have to shoot myself.
4. Exercise regularly because my hips can't fit into the baju kurung I am planning to wear on my engagement day anymore !

June will be a month of saving.
No unnecessary splurging allowed.

xoxo

Thursday, May 07, 2009

no scrubs.

I just had my bath.
I'm off today as I worked the graveyard 10 pm to 7 am shift yesterday.
Oh boy, last night was definitely not a night I would want to remember.
I had to go down to ward supply unit thrice, including once for a patient who was being discharged in the middle of the freaking night !
And there were patients non stop all throughout the night.
I could not even get a few minutes of shut eye.
I was knocked out the minute I got home.

So, I had a couple of hours of sleep, did a little house and room sweeping and a (very) little bathroom scrubbing.
I say a little because no matter how I try to clean, everything just seems still unkempt.
Especially when I am losing so much hair these days.

Lene received an offer to do Diploma in Science in UiTM Kuala Pilah !! Alhamdulillah.
She also received the offer to go for Matriculation in Malacca earlier, but she was not interested.
I am ecstatic ! I know she's gonna do well.
And I am also grateful that Kuala Pilah is not that far. Alhamdulillah.
My little sister's going to uni !
Oh boy, I am so happy !

It was sweet to know that Noe had bought a cake for Foot Seng (whose birthday was last Monday) and I yesterday, so all of us spent the evening after work having yummy cake ! I had millions of slices because they forced me to !
Noe took some photos so I'm gonna have to get them from her, then I'll upload some for your viewing pleasure ok. Haha.
Aku pun tak tahu apa yang kelakar.

Met up with Annisa and Fira last Tuesday night for my belated birthday treat from Annisa. We had Tony Roma's at Sunway Pyramid.
I had half a chicken ! Almost finished it lah. But it was delicious ! And the Chocolate Avalanche who Fira and Ann sweetly turned into my birthday cake was soooo heavenly !
Photos are with Ann, I left my camera at home which is ridiculous in my dictionary !

I'm in the Outpatient Pharmacy this month, so if any of you happen to drop by the hospital, you would probably see me dispensing medications while looking super stressed. Sigh.

Gosh, I'm starving.
I'm gonna head out for a bit to get food lah.
Bye.

xoxo

Sunday, May 03, 2009

i'm 25, yikes.

On a less worrying note, Happy Belated 25th Birthday to me ! *smiles*






xoxo

the reason(s).

As much as I would want to ignore them, I have valid reasons to be worried as hell.

Reason No. 1
I have done NOTHING pertaining to my research, since I had my proposal presentation more than a month ago.

Reason No. 2
All my clinical cases are HALFWAY (maybe even quarter-way, if there is such a word) clerked. And I am not even 1 percent ready to present any of them.

Reason No. 3
BOTH OF THE ABOVE HAVE TO BE COMPLETED BY THE END OF THIS MONTH.

Reason No. 4
I have gained unnecessary flab due to more than a month of not exercising and incessant munching. BOTH MY THIGHS ARE PRACTICALLY SLAPPING EACH OTHER OK. They used to be only rubbing against each other, no slapping actions. Sigh.

Reason No. 5
After a visit to Nilai 3 with Mr Sunshine last Friday, it has dawned upon us that our wedding is going to burn a HUGE hole in our pockets.

Reason No. 6
When Lene leaves for university, Daddy would be HOME ALONE. Arrgghhhhh, how lah.

Reason No. 7
Mr Sunshine's family is coming next month for my risik cum engagement and the house is nowhere near a presentable state. OMG, next month ?

Reason No. 8
I am losing hair. AGAIN. This time along with excessive shedding dead skin cells from my scalp. I have dandruff ! What's wrong with me lah.

There you go.
I think I might need anti-anxiety pills.
*dies*

xoxo