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Friday, October 28, 2011

kiss from a rose.

I was 10 when I first heard this song. 17 years have passed and it still gives me goosebumps every single time I listen to it.



xoxo

Thursday, October 27, 2011

sos ! ebm distress !

Starting tomorrow, I will be traveling around for the next two weeks. Mr. Sunshine, Dian Khayla and I will be heading to Kerteh tomorrow afternoon, as Mr. Sunshine has an exhibition to prepare for and handle on Saturday (29th).
We'll be spending the night at Gombak (yay !) on Saturday and leave for Malacca on Sunday. Mr. Sunshine has a 4-day convention and we're tagging along with hopes of getting to do a bit of sightseeing along the way. Also because we're planning to head back to Batu Pahat after Mr. Sunshine is done with his convention.
Then it's back to Gombak on Saturday (5th) for Raya Haji, after spending three nights in Batu Pahat. After that, I'll be staying back in Gombak, while Mr. Sunshine goes back to Kuala Berang on the 7th (Monday) and comes back to Gombak on the 10th (Thursday), for an important family event which is happening on Friday, the 11th, InshaAllah.
We'll be saying hi to Kuala Berang on Saturday, the 12th.
And I start work on the following Monday !

Oh boy, I'm panting from just typing all of that !
Not that I needed to write down every detail, but I wanted to ! Hah.

Now, my primary concern is how I'm gonna squeeze the task of stocking up my freezer with my EBM into all that traveling.
Mr Sunshine and I only have a one-door fridge here in Kuala Berang, hence, sad to say, the ones that I have stored in the freezer are definitely going to waste. Sobs !
Hopefully I can still save the ones I placed below the freezer by carrying them along in a cooler bag.
I have no idea how to make sure I have enough EBM for Khayla once I start work, now that I have to hop from one place to another in this crucial last two weeks. :(

Help !

xoxo

Sunday, October 23, 2011

the chronicles of my weight (gain).

Khayla has been asleep since 1300 hours just now.
I have managed to freshen up, express milk, have lunch, perform my Zuhur prayers and tidy up the house a little. I've tried going back to bed but my eyes just won't shut.
Since I have nothing better to do, I thought I'd put up a post on my pre and post pregnancy weight fluctuations. Narcissistic, much ?

I am gonna file this post under my 'notes to self' label to remind me that I still have a few kilos to shed and not to overeat like tak sedar diri. :)

Before I got hitched, my weight was around 54 to 55 kgs, which was considered normal for my height. I've always been curvy, blessed with (huge) boobs and (huge) hips. My other body parts are considerably smaller, which is why I think a number of people wouldn't believe me when I told them I weighed 54kgs. There were even some who thought I weighed 10 kgs lighter !
But as Oprah puts it, it's not about the number on the scale, ......okay so I forgot the rest of the quote but you get the picture, don't you ? Haha.

Moving on !

1. I got married in January 2010 and I lost 2kgs for my wedding.

January 2010 - 52 kgs

2. By November 2010, I gained back the 2kgs I lost. Hehe.

November 2010 - 54 kgs
3. In March 2011, and at 16 weeks pregnant, I had already gained 3kgs.

March 2011, 16 weeks pregnant - 57 kgs
4. The weight was steadily piling on as the weeks progressed.

April 2011, 20 weeks pregnant - 59.5 kgs
5. May 2011 - There was just no stopping me at that time. I was happily putting on 5 kgs within a month ! The nurses at my antenatal clinic weren't so pleased. Hehe.

May 2011, 24 weeks pregnant - 64.5 kgs
6. In June 2011, my weight skyrocketed, again !

June 2011, 28 weeks pregnant - 68 kgs
7. July 2011 - I just couldn't stop getting fatter. Haha. But by this time, the weight increment was slower than the previous two months. Phew !

July 2011, 32 weeks - 69.5 kgs
8. In August 2011, it dawned on me that I had gained about 16 kgs throughout my pregnancy ! Woahhhh !

August 2011, 32 weeks - 70.5 kgs
9. About a month after I delivered my precious baby Dian Khayla, I only managed to shed about 7 kgs off ! *nangis*
September 2011, 3 weeks post-partum - 63 kgs
10. To date, I have lost a total of 10kgs, and I still need to lose another 6 kgs to get to my pre-pregnancy weight.
October 2011, 2 months post-partum - 59 kgs
I've got around 2 inches to lose around my hips in order for me to fit into most of my old baju kurungs a.k.a my work clothes. If I don't lose 'em, looks like Mr. Sunshine's gotta take me on a shopping spree ! Hehe.

I'm lucky I can still squeeze myself into a couple of baju kurungs, because I had a wedding to attend yesterday.
Here's to hoping I get to say goodbye to my extra kilos, soon !

xoxo

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

dian khayla - 2 months progress report

Khayla now weighs a whopping 5.4 kgs.


She didn't get her immunization shots during her 2 months check up because the vaccines were out of stock. The clinic's gonna give us a call when they've replenished their stocks. I'm still thinking whether it's necessary to bring Khayla to a private clinic to get jabbed.

These days, we get a lot of gurgling, cooing, ooohs and aaahhhs from her along with lots of smiles and if we're lucky we can get a cute laugh out of her.


She can lift her head up for short periods while she's lying on her tummy.


I've also noticed that she can stay focused on objects and people (and the telly !) for a longer extent of time.


She still enjoys her bath time and still wails when we try to get her dressed no matter how hard we try to distract her.
Alhamdulillah, she's still fully breastfed, and I am (very, VERY) slowly stocking my freezer up with my EBM.

Mr. Sunshine and I have decided to get her an electric cradle. Khayla sleeps better and longer in the cradle during the day which has resulted in her being less cranky and fussy, Alhamdulillah. Not to mention, more time for me to catch up on much needed sleep, complete house chores, express milk, and eat at a slower pace to avoid indigestion. Hehe.
However, I don't use the cradle to put her to sleep at night, and if I do put her in it during the day, it's only when she's almost asleep, just to give the nudge she needs to sleep soundly.
I don't want her to depend on the cradle to fall asleep.

We have also tried giving her an orthodontic pacifier to calm her at times. She refused to suck on it the first few times, but is slowly getting used to it. 
I know some parents would be against the idea of giving their child a pacifier, but I also know a number of parents who have successfully raised their children while using a pacifier with no problems at all. Plus, it's not like she's sucking on it 24 hours a day, and I would always offer her my breasts first. :)
Everything has their advantages and disadvantages. What's best for one baby might not be suitable for another.

I can't believe it has been 2 months already ! Alhamdulillah. :)

xoxo

Monday, October 17, 2011

decisions, decisions, decisions.

I have a couple of important decisions to make.
I am praying for a sign to let me make the right ones.
Ameen.

xoxo

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

babies don't really need to bathe, right ?

Hello everyone. I'm writing from my hotel room in Sutera Inn, Kota Bharu where I'm accompanying Mr. Sunshine who's attending a course here.
This would be our first stay at a hotel with Dian Khayla, and I have been adjusting the air-cond temperature every two minutes (yes, exactly two minutes) because I'm worried that she'll freeze or fall sick.
Another worry is that how am I gonna bathe Khayla tomorrow morning. Most of the people I've asked have told me I could use the sink, but I have little confidence in my abilities to bathe her in such a small space.


How lah ?

We're fortunate that the room they provided us with comes with one queen-sized bed plus a twin-sized one. I'm planning to put Dian Khayla to sleep on the twin-sized bed, surrounded by lots of pillows so she won't roll and fall off the bed. Choy !
She can't exactly 'roll' yet lah kan, but there have been a few mornings on which I have woken up to find her head not on her pillow anymore and her legs and butt were off her mattress !
It's a good thing we're all sleeping on the floor at home. Hehe.

I'm such a worry wart.

There's a peculiar stench in this room. Hmm.

xoxo

Friday, October 07, 2011

and it's down to the three of us

I am back in Kuala Berang with Mr Sunshine and Dian Khayla.

Mr Sunshine started work last Wednesday which means I have been left alone at home during the day with Khayla for two days already.

It's just you and me, baby. :)

Khayla has not been sleeping much during the day for the past two weeks (about half an hour at a time and a maximum of 1.5 hours in total), but she has been sleeping for longer stretches at night (3-4 hours). This is a total opposite from how she was a month ago when she would sleep soundly during the day and have trouble going to bed at night, Alhamdulillah. However, without anyone around during the day, it can get pretty hectic because I have to squeeze eating, bathing, house chores etc within her short naps. Not easy !

I am still trying to adapt to the daily lack of sleep and panda eyes that come with taking care of a baby. I think I'm starting to look something like this now..


Tetap maintain comel ok. Hehe.

Mr. Sunshine stopped in Kuantan on our way back to Terengganu last Sunday and Khayla had her first official (brief) outing !
She was awake and enjoyed sightseeing while Mr Sunshine carried her around Berjaya Megamall but dozed off as soon as our Kenny Rogers' meals arrived, as if she was giving her parents a chance to eat together, peacefully. Hehe. Oh, but not before she was fed. It was my first time breastfeeding in public and I managed to be discreet about it, thanks to my hijab and nursing blouse I bought from Autumnz. :)

Khayla, asleep in Kenny Rogers. :)
Speaking of breastfeeding, I've encountered a few humps in my breastfeeding journey. Hyperlactation (only in my left breast), just to name one. Khayla frequently has a difficult time feeding comfortably due to that. She's also the type who wants to be fed at frequent intervals, so it can get pretty exhausting for me. Overfeeding and reflux has been an occasional problem for us, because it comes with projectile vomiting. How can you not panic when your one month old's vomit 'flies' almost half a meter across the room and comes out through her nose too ?

I am hoping to be able to exclusively breastfeed Khayla for at least 6 months, even better if I can continue to do so until she's two, InshaAllah.
But I haven't started to store any expressed breast milk (EBM) yet, so that's definitely a cause for worry for me !
I tried expressing my milk last week while we were in Gombak and had trouble trying to give Khayla the milk through a bottle. She refused the bottle if I was the one holding it, but was drinking fine for two days when Lene fed her. So far, I haven't tried again. But I know I will have to real soon ! I'm currently trying to find time to express milk when I am alone at home with Khayla, but without any success. Gulp.

Gotta stay positive !

My maternity leave ends in about a month's time and we haven't found a babysitter yet. Mr Sunshine and I better do something about this, pronto !
I cannot imagine having to leave my baby with someone else. Sobs. :(
I have no idea where to start when it comes to searching for a babysitter here in Kuala Berang. :(

Gotta stay positive !

Who am I trying to kid, those who know me well know that optimism and I don't go hand in hand. Hehe.

I am aware that this whole post is about Khayla, but at the moment there's nothing interesting going on in my life except for her, so please bear with me. Hehe.

Have a good weekend, everyone. Bye !

xoxo