did you miss me ?

Hello blogosphere !

Pardon my absence for almost 2 months.
I am not sure whether anyone is still reading this space, but I can assure you that I have valid reasons for the lack of updates. :)

Remember my hospital admission in December ? 
Well, after that, my days have been preoccupied with adjusting myself to aches, excessive bloating and burping and extreme exhaustion because the actual diagnosis at the time was...

If that's not clear enough for you, prior to that, I had a couple, no wait, a few of these...

Paranoid, much ?

Yes, people, I am expecting. Alhamdulillah. :)

Mr Sunshine and I agreed to keep the good news hush-hush until I have passed my first trimester and I have ! Alhamdulillah.

I am currently entering my 16th week of pregnancy. Alhamdulillah.

Getting through my first trimester was no easy feat, I was constantly exhausted, felt as if I was running a marathon the whole day. Even waking up from sleep was dreadful, I always felt as if my energy was emptied while I was asleep. I was looking pale day in day out, much to the amusement of my boss who called me a 'mayat berjalan' (walking corpse) and the worry of my other colleagues.
Spending time in front of the computer/laptop gave me a headache, so that explains why I wasn't tweeting, blogging or 'Facebooking'. :)

My sense of smell was terribly heightened, the slightest sniff of food (yes, food !), rubbish or any stench made me nauseous and sent me running to the toilet to throw up. I couldn't even stand the smell of my hair conditioner, Mr. Sunshine's shampoo and my laundry detergent. Brushing my teeth was not pleasant too.
I lived solely on bread for one month because everything else (and their odour) seemed to make me wanna vomit. I have not been cooking (poor Mr. Sunshine) for the same reasons.
I had a bitter taste that lingered in my mouth the whole day so I had to suck on sweets every now and then.
My tummy was uncomfortable most of the time, I was bloated and burping every minute. Some nights I would have trouble sleeping because of the bloating.

Things were not so rosy in the emotions department too. In the first few weeks after I found out I was pregnant, Daddy was hospitalised and I felt soooo dejected. Along with stress at work, I felt like I couldn't handle all of it. In my second and third month of pregnancy, I would sometimes cry because I felt helpless that I couldn't do anything about my appetite and my energy. I was worried my baby wasn't getting enough nutrients. But all is good now, Alhamdulillah.

Ah, and the pregnancy hormones have caused my face to break out ! Pimples here and there, and everywhere !

As for my ovarian cyst, the check up I went for in January revealed no cyst. YAY ! Alhamdulilah. But they did see this...

That's my little one at 10 weeks ! Alhamdulillah. :)

I am currently actually still going through all of the symptoms above but I think they're beginning to wane. I hope.
These days, lack of sleep is a norm because I have to wake up to pee once or twice in the middle of the night, every night.

I lost weight after my first trimester, due to all the vomiting and lack of food.
But I am slowly trying to eat properly and I can see the weight adding up fast. My clothes are getting a bit snug. :)
For the first time in my life, I am not worried about gaining weight ! Ha !

The only trouble is, most of the food I feel like eating is in KL/Gombak. My pregnancy taste buds is not adapting to the food here too well. Hehe. How lah ?

As for reading materials, I only have Heidi Murkoff's What to Expect When You're Expecting suggested by a couple of friends including my best friend, Diana who is ALSO pregnant !! We're only 4 weeks apart with our pregnancy, how exciting ! :D

I am really blessed to have Mr Sunshine with me right here, he has been my rock, offering words of comfort whenever I was feeling blue. He has been doing the laundry, and cleaning up the house and even cooks once in a while, the whole time I have been down with morning sickness. Alhamdulillah.
Thank you sooo much sayang !
I tell our baby everyday about how sweet his/her ayah is, tau ? :D

Why is it called morning sickness when it actually lasts the whole day ? So misleading, kan !
I have been very antisocial for the past two months. Apart from the fatigue, I wanted to avoid any outside odour that would make me vomit.

I am hoping to be able to go out a bit more after this. :)

I hope my experience won't scare anyone who is planning to have a baby, hehe. Every woman goes through it differently, I have a friend who had a very, very smooth sailing pregnancy with no vomiting, no nothing at all. :)
And I am in no way complaining, just sharing. Alhamdulillah. :)

Hopefully, everything goes well. InshaAllah. Ameen.
Ok bye !


xoxo