Tuesday, May 27, 2008

let's have a slumber party.

Currently feeling: Melancholic
Currently listening to: Black Horse And The Cherry Tree - KT Tunstall

I've been away. Not literally.
Just have been dealing with some issues that have been lingering around me.

And also because the internet connection here has been terminated.

Pojie left last Sunday.
Yamin did so too, last Friday.
I didn't know it'd be this sad.
I mean my tears were overflowing that Sunday morning.
Classmates for six years.
Housemates for one.
Wah, damn depressing isn't it ?

I guess what happened is inevitable.
I guess I don't handle people leaving very well.

People always leave.
(Peyton Sawyer, One Tree Hill)

Peyton reminds me so much of the sister.
She (the sister) thinks it's a sign that she should get her hair permed.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, they say.
Yeah, right.

I wouldn't mind a slumber party.
You know, the kind where I can talk about anything to my girlfriends, do each other's nails and have pillow fights.

Hey you, I wished I had more nights like these with you.
You know, the kind where we can just sit together, hold hands and cuddle, and do nothing.
We don't always need to have a plan or know what we want to do to be happy, right ?

Something is bloody wrong with my mouse.
And why the hell can't I burn DVDs anymore ?

My eyes are tearing. Pedih.
I think it's because of me overloading on mascara lately.
You know, to give the impression of wide peepers and cover up the fact that I have been losing on sleep and crying too much.

Oh, oh how could I have forgotten, I went to this waterfall last Saturday. I believe it was called Chilling or something. Chilling baby, how cool of a name is that ? Hee.



The guys went on and on complaining on how shallow the water had become due to the recent logging activities in the area. The water was filled with sand. It (the water) used to be up until over their heads, apparently.
But hey, that's a good thing for me, okay ! Haha.
We had yummy barbequed chicken. Hee.
Ah, sad.
It'd probably be the last time that I'd ever see those people. I mean I won't be seeing them for quite some time after this.

Okay, enough rambling this time.

I've got some serious thinking to do.


Wednesday, May 21, 2008


Currently feeling: Pained
Currently listening to: Sempurna - Gita Gutawa

Am I the only one who doesn't feel liberated ?
Can someone tell me why ?
The anticipation just fizzled out miserably.

The interview was okay.
I think.

But, Alhamdulillah.

My head hurts.

Here are pictures from the outing with Annisa.
We were at The Curve.
She sort of made me her model for the day, to shoot with her new SLR camera.

I have yet to pack my books.
I'm too darn lazy.


Tuesday, May 20, 2008

panas nak mam***.

Currently feeling: Angry
Currently listening to: Through The Rain - Mariah Carey


Or at least make ME kill someone.

Arrrgghhhhhh !



Currently feeling: Sweaty
Currently listening to: Angel - Jack Johnson

Eh, resume dah siap ?

Okay so now I desperately need to go somewhere air conditioned.
Or at least somewhere the fan blows harder (?) than the one here in my room.



Currently feeling: Bloated
Currently listening to: Hard To Say I'm Sorry - Az Yet

The only good thing about Over Her Dead Body is Paul Rudd.
Yummy yummy.

The interview's tomorrow and I'm just only starting on my resume.
Yamin has hers today, I hope she does okay. I know she'll do okay !
Nervousnya saya !

I feel so bloated that I think I can throw up over and over again.
I overate last night.
I ate enough to sustain me for the whole week. No kidding.

Okay, I need to wake Mr. Sunshine up.
That rarely happens because he's the one who usually wakes me up so saya bangga sikit. Haha.
But I'm up early because it's so freaking hot.

Oh, oh, Happy happy birthday Stumpy ku !
Love you babe !
Miss you loads !


Monday, May 19, 2008


Currently feeling: Anxious
Currently listening to: Breaking My Own Heart - Duffy

There are a few things I crave right now (in random order) :

  1. Donuts. Lots of 'em !
  2. Hot pancakes with syrup and ice cream.
  3. Roasted black pepper chicken with black pepper sauce. Nyum !
  4. A holiday with the family. Cherating again, maybe ?
  5. An outing with the sister. I so miss our outings. Sobs.
  6. A long heart to heart session with Akey. Sobs.
  7. Dinner/lunch/breakfast (whichever la okay) with the housemates. I can't remember the last time we sat down together. I've been missing, I know.
  8. A gossip session with Stumpy. We talked on the phone for awhile just now and it's just never enough.
  9. A proper and long date with Mr. Sunshine. No books. No lecture notes. No distractions. Just you and me, what say you ?

Will be meeting Annisa later.


blueberry pie.

Currently feeling: Sleepy
Currently listening to: Nothing

I just finished watching P.S. I Love You and My Blueberry Nights, back to back.
Leaving me feeling a bit melancholic.

The weather's not very kind tonight.
I'm sweating all over.

My nails need to be cut.

I want to meet Akey.
I have to.

I don't really feel like socializing that much.

My interview is this Wednesday and I'm nowhere near ready for it.

I need food.
Two days of Pan Mee wasn't enough.


Sunday, May 18, 2008


Currently feeling: Low
Currently listening to: Keep Holding On - Avril Lavigne

Something is amiss here.
Did anything happen while I was gone ?


Saturday, May 17, 2008

masjid india.

Currently feeling: Bloated
Currently listening to: Cuba - Faizal Tahir

The sister bought me a new blanket yo !

Okay, so Faizal Tahir kinda rocks.
He's pretty good.


the blanket's torn up.

Currently feeling: Okay
Currently listening to: Aku Punya Kamu - Faizal Tahir

This song is the bomb.

I need a new blanket.


Friday, May 16, 2008

just keep swimming.

Currently feeling: Gloomy
Currently listening to: Out Of Reach - Gabrielle

Warning: This post contains more than 20 photos.

I (and half of my classmates) just got back from a 4 days and 3 nights holiday/class trip at the beautiful Tioman Island. One of our lecturers, Mr Osama came along too, and he brought a friend. Altogether there were 37 of us.
We left Shah Alam at around 8 am Monday, and the bus ride was a pretty long and bumpy one.

On the bus, with Syafiq and Hafiz.

We reached the Mersing jetty at around 2 pm.

At the jetty.

We only boarded the ferry at about 5 pm. Yeah, the wait was pretty boring, and most of us were so sleepy as we took our motion sickness tablets earlier.

On the ferry. Scary okay.

We reached Salang Indah Resort, Tioman, at nearly 7 pm. Checked in and got comfortable. We had the whole night to do whatever we wanted.
Food was provided, so they served us dinner, the squid sambal was so yummy.
Syafiq and I took a walk around the place, and took some photos that night.

The next morning, after breakfast which I skipped, we got ready to go snorkeling.
As some of you might already know (okay maybe only the family and the ex), I am hydrophobic, I can't swim, I can get hysterical even in swimming pools and I've never been further than 1 m into the sea from the beach. So, for obvious reasons, I told people that I wasn't going, and I'd just be sitting nicely on the boat while they snorkeled away. *paints a pretty picture in head*

Say hi to Mr Osama.

That's Mr Osama, the guy responsible for being so persuasive, and coaxed me to get off the boat and TRY snorkelling. OMG, as soon as I dipped my legs into the water, I was screaming (attracting attention and laughter from all the others) my lungs out. I wanted to get back on the boat, but NO, he guaranteed that I wouldn't regret trying, so Syafiq and him brought me further away from the boat. I don't trust life jackets. I didn't stop screaming, crying, didn't even put my snorkelling mask on for more than a few seconds, and I didn't even look into the water. I didn't snorkel. Mr Osama brought me back to the boat where I was shivering (out of fear, mind you) and still crying. Gila traumatized okay !

Pre traumatic experience

Them snorkelling. I was lucky no one took pictures of me screaming in the water. Or did they ?

Syafiq feeding the fishes. They were sooooo beautiful !

The boat took us to another stop, on Coral Island where these people had lunch and played in the water for a bit. I was still a bit shaken, but the water was so beautiful I couldn't resist going in. Hee.

Coral Island yo ! The water was only until my waist (hence me being brave), we were all bending to give the impression of the water being deep, I guess. Haha.

The boat's last stop was another snorkelling stop (blergh !) and I have obviously vowed to never even attempt snorkelling ever again. So I was sitting comfortably on the boat, feeding bread to the fishes and passing bread to my classmates. Syafiq was a darling, because he didn't force me to get down. (Sayang awak !) Or maybe he was just sick of hearing me scream. Haha.
Then Mr Osama had to get in the picture. When I told him that there was just one piece of bread left, he told me that I've gotta be in the water to feed the fishes and once again he coaxed me to get off the boat, but this time he told me to be close to the boat and hold on the boat steps. So I did just that, I screamed a bit, but I held on tight to the boat steps, wore my snorkelling mask and dipped my head into the water, and fed the fishes. I could see and feel them nibbling at my fingers. While at that, I managed to get a glimpse of the corals down below and it was an awesome sight ! *heart smiles*
I guess I've gotta thank Mr Osama for that little push he gave me, if not I would have missed out on witnessing such beautiful corals and fishes, but that doesn't change anything, I'm still never going snorkelling, EVER again, thank you.

That same evening, some of us explored and took pictures of the place around our chalet.

The guys and I.


That's the jetty behind us.
Sigh. The place was beautiful. (I just can't stop saying that)

The next morning, after breakfast which I skipped again, we took a boat to Tekek, and went jungle trekking from there to Kampung Juara, which was on the other side of the island. We went uphill and downhill for three hours. Some people who hurt their legs during snorkelling the day before had a pretty rough time walking for three hours. Kesian tau !



The 3 hours was worth it, though.

Yamin bebeh !

On the way back, on the boat, the sea brought me to tears again. This time is when the boat stopped while waiting for the other boat. The whole being-static-in-the-middle-of-the-sea thingy just scared the shit out of me. And the boatman just had to joke around by saying he was running out of fuel. Very funny. *straight face* I cried even harder after hearing that.
And oh, I just had to slip and fall in the boat along with Syafiq and a few other of my classmates. Which of course, gave me another reason to not stop crying. I scratched my knee too. Sigh.
Hah, another traumatic experience in the sea. Hee.

We (they), couldn't get enough of the water, so we (they) swam some more that evening.

Them fooling around.

That rock was so slippery.

Sunset at Tioman. *heart smiles*
(those little things you see in the water are actually the heads of my classmates who were crazy enough to go that far. Hee.)

We spent our last night there playing Truth or Dare, had barbequed chicken, fish and squid, and took a walk on the jetty.

Post barbeque.

The last night at the jetty. Sobs.

The guys managed to squeeze in another game of beach volleyball before we checked out that Thursday afternoon.

Before leaving.

We were back in Shah Alam at around 12 am this morning.
The trip was definitely worth it. Traumatic or not, I had a superb time ! Thank you Sunshine ! *heart smiles*
The seawater pretty much cleared up my eczema. Yay !
I don't think I'll ever go snorkeling ever ever ever again for the rest of my life. I know I've said that thrice. Just wanted you people to know how serious I am. Hee.
I'm so gonna miss my classmates. Sobs.
I am sunburnt, and slightly tanned I think.
I swam (okay, okay, walked) the furthest into the sea from the beach there. It's a record baby ! *muka bangga*
Thanks to everyone for making the trip and enjoyable and meaningful one.
All the best, people !

I'm gonna miss these two girls of mine. We had our (last) dinner together last Saturday night. Sobs.

I'd be going back to Gombak later, coming back here this Sunday though. I need to start slowly packing all my stuff. Blergh.

Until my next post, in the words of Mr Osama to me, keep swimming !


Tuesday, May 06, 2008

idiot box.

Currently feeling: Depressed
Currently listening to: Nothing

Woke up today in a considerably good mood, even though I still have quite a bit more to study.
But as usual, something just has to happen to ruin the mood.
So this time it was no one's fault.
This time it was the television which brought me down to tears.
They're airing this show about Mother's Day in which viewer's can call in to make dedications.
I shall go sink my head in my pillow and cry my heart out now.


Monday, May 05, 2008

pangamic acid.

Currently feeling: Pained
Currently listening to: Nothing

The twitching is gone, thank God.

I have barely started studying for my last paper this Thursday.
Saya dilanda kemalasan yang amat sangat.

Yummy cendol pulut + Mr. Sunshine = A happy Melissa.



Currently feeling: Cranky
Currently listening to: Linger - The Cranberries

You know the type of dreams which cause you to wake up feeling cranky/grouchy etc. ?
I don't like them.


be gentle with me.

Currently feeling: Exhausted
Currently listening to: A Broken Wing - Jordin Sparks

Adam's back.
He called last Thursday night.

I'm feeling a bit disconnected from the things around me.
Is this how getting old feels like ?

When you start to question whether or not you can do better, that's when things start to go wrong.

I'm wiped out.
I think I'm gonna be sick.


Saturday, May 03, 2008


Currently feeling: Hungry
Currently listening to: Nothing

My eyelid has been twitching since two days ago.
It has happened before la, but right now the twitching is starting to get on my nerves.
It turns out that I might be experiencing eyelid myokymia.
According to, eyelid myokymia is defined as fine continuous contractions of the eyelid muscle, typically involving one of the lower eyelids, less often an upper eyelid. The condition occurs spontaneously, sometimes triggered by stress, fatigue, caffeine or alcohol. In most cases, the condition is benign and ceases of its own accord.

Stress. Check. Exams.
Fatigue. Check. Exams !
Caffeine. Check. Exams ! I've been downing too much Coke Light.

Oh well, it'll all be over soon.
InsyaAllah, Aamin.


Friday, May 02, 2008

twenty four.

Currently feeling: Okay
Currently listening to: Something To Believe In - Aqualung

I turned 24 last Sunday.

My darling Gombak people took me out for dinner at TGIF the night before.

The girls.

The guys.

The sister. Kiss kiss.

Happy birthday to me !

I had such a good time with all the eating, chatting, laughing and singing ! Thanks a whole lot you guys !
Thanks for the gifts, the dinner the cake, and the awesome company.

Oh oh, guess who came later that night...

Sunshine !

My housemates got me a yummy cake.
Thank you Pojie, Yamin, Ina and Atia.

A blurry me and a happy Yamin. Hee.

We took more pictures but since Pojie wasn't wearing her tudung that night, I can't upload them here.

Thanks to everyone who remembered. Thank you for all the calls and messages.

These are some random pictures.

This was taken on my birthday.

Looky that !

These are from Cha's birthday two weeks ago. We were at Murni, SS2.

I feel that I did badly in all my papers so far. Sad, okay.
I wanna graduate on time !
Sigh, just one more to go.
Wish me luck, people !