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Saturday, September 03, 2011

confinement blues.

Day 22 of confinement.
I am halfway through ! Alhamdulillah.
Mr. Sunshine is back in Kuala Berang as he starts work tomorrow, so it's me and Khayla at my in-laws.
I have got to admit that I'm not coping so well emotionally.
I think it's partly due to the lack of sleep which every new parent is bound to experience with a newborn.
I have been so accustomed to getting at least 7 hours of sleep every night before this, so adapting to 1 to 2 hours of sleep is tough !
Khayla is not the only baby in this house, because I have also had my share of crying spells. Sometimes I just break down for no obvious reason. Exhaustion maybe ?
It's painful not to have Mr Sunshine by my side because he is the one who has been my rock, comforting and consoling me without fail, rubs my back when I am nursing Khayla in the middle of the night, hugs me the minute he sees tears in my eyes and of course he is my partner in putting Khayla to sleep. :'(
Mr. Sunshine, if you're reading this, I miss you and I need you. *nangis*

I know I should be grateful to have my in-laws here taking care of me and trust me, I am ! But I am sure wives out there would understand how it is like being away from your husbands. Especially in times like these.

I hope I don't end up with post-partum depression.

22 days old Dian Khayla is doing good, Alhamdulillah.
She feeds, poops, pees, cries and sleeps every day. Hehe.

This year is my first year celebrating Eid as a mother, Alhamdulillah. I had to borrow my sister in-law's baju kurung this year as I foolishly didn't get one for myself (and Mr. Sunshine) and also because I can't fit into the one I brought from Kuala Berang.
Daddy, Marc, Lene and Linn came over on the third day of Eid and spent half a day here. :)
Here are a few of my Eid snapshots.

Khayla with Atuk ! ;)

Khayla with her Uncle and Aunts. :)

My awesome in-laws. :)

My everything. :)



I pray for the strength to get through the days ahead. Ameen.
I need to stay strong for Khayla.

GOTTA


STAY


POSITIVE !

*nangis*

xoxo

10 comments:

honey bedazzled said...

owh im pretty sure it is tough. but i am sure ur doing the best! keep up the good work kak mel. be strong ya!you have all the love around you. i will pray for Allah s.w.t to give u strength okay! hugss and lovesss

mizzyN said...

Hi dear, confinrment seems to be bluer with hubby not around isn't it. Take it one day at a time is all i can say. Our hormones are here there and everywhere at the moment. Spend more time with baby and you'll be ok eventually. Baby reigns from now :)

venusfreedom said...

Melissa, dont wait till end of your confinement to go back to tganu. Once you feel you're doing fine, balik la your own house. It is never the same without hubby by yourside. The stress aiyooooo.. Boleh jadi wengggg. Take care ok. Nursing mother shouldnt stress, nanti susu xkeluar, baby jadi cranky. Selamat hari raya melissa;)

venusfreedom said...

Melissa, dont wait till end of your confinement to go back to tganu. Once you feel you're doing fine, balik la your own house. It is never the same without hubby by yourside. The stress aiyooooo.. Boleh jadi wengggg. Take care ok. Nursing mother shouldnt stress, nanti susu xkeluar, baby jadi cranky. Selamat hari raya melissa;)

JoeJane said...

hey there.. sedih baca ur post.. I feel you mel. That was why i x berpantang at my inlaws.. they too are super awesome. treats me like a princess.. But i cant stand being separated from the husband. Manja or not, but that is the fact. and masa confinement memang challenging. Emotionally. Make du'a to Allah, mel. Help make things easy for you and baby, ok? In the mean time, bersabar and redha.

take care mel..

NS said...

Mel, Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir Batin!~ <3 Khayla schomel~ like mummy dia :)..banyak bersabar k? banyak2 kan berdoa juga k?..*hugs*

Red Clutch said...

yup... sungguh memerlukan kesabaran yg sangat sangat sangat tinggi... Allah menguji kamu sebegini kerana Dia tahu kamu mampu menghadapinya...selapas bersalin, kita juga spt bayi...putih bersih...

coping up memang sangat susah, mine too but in a differ way... sikit lagi, as the baby grows... u'll be supper happy... confinement is the loooooongest 44/45 days in our life!!!

muachhhsss

My Love.. said...

dont be sad dik...akak also went thru everythin alone..with parents only..hubby managed to be by my side for 2 weeks..and those 2 weeks, we have to go to hospital evryday as baby had the jaundice and later had the pneumonia..lagi penat..stay at the hospital, waiting him n breastfed him.

u can do it gurl..and thank god as my hubby away, n my son behave very well..as my frens said "budak ayah dia jauh..anak dia behave sbb xmo mak dia susah sorang2"...

m. said...

ooh! i like that you went with the name dian (: (: i've always found that pretty. also is her middle name pronounced khay-la? (: (or khai-la?)

Melissa said...

Nanie: Thanks dear, so far I'm doing ok I guess. Alhamdulillah. Hugs. :)

MizzyN: Tell me about it ! My hormones seem to be going on a rollercoaster ride. Hehe. But I'm surviving ! Alhamdulillah.

Nana: Hubby doesn't want me to be without any observation during this confinement period. But so far, it's not as bad as I imagined it to be. :)

JoeJane: Thanks Afra. Du'a is my only weapon right now. :)

Syusyu: Selamat Hari Raya dear ! Thanks dear, hugs !

Red Clutch: Itu lah, days seem to pass by soooo slowly during confinement ni kan ? But I'm almost nearing the end of it ! Alhamdulillah. Thanks dear. :)

K.Zurai: I take my hats off to you kak ! Khayla ni when her ayah's not around, tak behave pun ? Sobs. Hehe.

Mel: Aww, thanks dear ! It's pronounces Khai-la. But my brother and sister want to call her Kayla. Haha.