274.

Currently feeling: Sleepy
Currently listening to: Sunday - Sia

Hi all.
Gosh. How long has it been ? Three weeks ? Almost eh.
I apologize for abandoning this space for such a long time.
It's just that I have been having trouble letting my thoughts out.
Every post I start to write ends up being saved as drafts for some reason.

But nothing much has happened since I last blogged, though.
I started work at Tanglin and I can genuinely say I am loving the place despite having to take a 20 minute walk to and fro from the LRT station. The people there are super nice, super kind, super helpful, super sweet. Just super. Unlike you know where.

Barath turned 23 on the 20th and we all (well, almost all) got together for dinner at La Bodega, Bangsar and after that adjourned to Telawi Street Bistro for some dancing and Barath smashing. I loved the ambience at La Bodega and the food was yummy too. Telawi Street Bistro was nice as we had the lounge all to ourselves. We were out until pretty late but it was a good night. Some pictures are ahead. I stayed over at Feli's that night and headed home the following day. I wanted to stay a bit later but I had to attend Kak Shena's wedding later that afternoon.

The Birthday Boy.

Kak Shena's wedding (she was my senior in high school) was just sooo beautiful !

As usual the whole family and I spent Christmas at Aunt Thelma's place.
I can honestly say that I stuffed myself with enough turkey and devil curry to last me for a month.
Faiz, Faizal and us went karaoke-ing for a bit in the afternoon.

Karaoke !

I bumped into an old close friend a couple of weeks ago and got to know that he relationship was on the rocks again.
A series of unbelievable shitty events happened since we met and now they are broken up for good. I hope.
I was absolutely speechless (I still am, actually) for I have never met and witnessed a person who thinks so highly of himself.
Aku memang handsome. Aku memang hebat. Aku memang perfect. WTF ?!
Mind you that he is not good looking (at all!) and has nothing. No sound career, no friends, no nothing. All he owns is his exceptionally great lying, cheating and flirting skills.
To make a long story short, he want this friend of mine to lose weight. He thinks she's fat, ugly and is a loser. He actually said those things to her, among other nasty things. Jerk, no ?
I am not even sure jerk is the appropriate term for him. What's worse than a jerk ? You would not believe what she had to endure for the past TEN years of being with him.
She (no matter how she has been to me in the past) deserves way better.
Being with her reminded me so much of what I went through.
I hope she takes me as proof that she can get through this (very) rough patch.
If I can, anyone can.

I am now an owner of a brand new Saga. Alhamdulillah. I received it on Boxing Day and am still thinking of what to call it/her/him.
I love my license plate number. 274 ! Such a cool coincidence OK. Ha, tak ingat lah tu ! *raises an eyebrow*
I swear it was not planned or bought or anything !
I only drove it/her/him for the first time today. Marc brought me to Putrajaya for driving lessons and practice.
I suck.
I would say that I am a bit better than before.
But I still suck and I would not trust myself to drive it/her/him out of Sri Gombak.

Another year has passed, here's to another 12 months filled with love, happiness, success, smiles and Allah's blessings. InsyaAllah, Aamin.
Salam Maal Hijrah 1430 everyone.

xoxo

lock your doors, people !

Currently feeling: Stuffed
Currently listening to: Nothing

While I was on the phone with Mr. Sunshine, I received a text message last night from one of my housemates at about 11 p.m saying that our apartment has been broken into. My heart stopped beating for a second.
I started thinking about the Saturday night that I spent there alone. I was literally shaking.
At the same time I felt lucky that I decided to pack up and leave for Gombak that Sunday evening after work itself and not wait until Monday morning.
I felt like crying, for reasons I myself cannot comprehend.
Marc, Lene, Linn and I immediately drove to Putrajaya.
A few police officers were there, they were the one who let me into the apartment to check on my room. I was told to just look around and identify whether anything valuable was missing and not touch anything.
It seems that they did not have much trouble getting into the apartment. The main door was not broken or anything.
My room was a total wreck. The door knob was broken.
My clothes were thrown all over. My books. My bags and even my mattress.
The only thing that was in its place was my shoe rack.
They even emptied my pencil case, in hopes of finding cash I think.
They did not take anything except for my RM10 note that I always have stashed in between my clothes for emergency purposes.
I was surprised that they did not even take my Fossil watch. Alhamdulillah.
One of my housemates lost her phone, and another lost her ring.
I guess they did not get away with anything much.
I am still slightly shaken.
I thank God that none of us were at home when it happened.
I thank God that I left the lights on when I was there alone last Saturday night.
I thank God that I decided to bring ALL my valuables back home.
I thank God that I decided not to stay back that Sunday night.
And although I'd be in Gombak for the next two months, can you blame me for not ever wanting to go back to Putrajaya ?

I took the day off today.
I was supposed to start working at Klinik Kesihatan Tanglin.
I'd be going tomorrow.
I would be taking the LRT to Pasar Seni then I'd be walking to the clinic.
Lene helped me find in finding the routes I can use to get to the clinic from the station. There are two different routes that I can use, one involves crossing a main road and walking uphill and the other would mean walking through the underpass where Audrey Melissa Bathinathan was raped and murdered almost ten years ago.
I have yet to decide which way to use. I'll just go with how I feel tomorrow morning.

Have any of you been to Central Market recently.
I know I might sound like a jakun but that place has realllllly changed tremendously.
I was in total awe. You could ask Lene if you did not believe me.
But given the fact that the last time I was there was about 7 years ago, I should not be so surprised.
But it's sooooooooooo different.
The toilets are actually nice and clean !

Mr. Sunshine's car has been giving him some serious problems.
SIGH.
It breaks my heart that he's all the way there, alone.
I am thinking of paying him a visit to lift his spirits up a bit but I am not sure when or whether Daddy would let me go alone.
Sobs.

People, please be careful.
Please make sure all your doors and windows are locked at all time.
If you're inside, make sure you can lock it from the inside too.
Keep your lights on if you plan to leave the house for quite some time.
It helps if you could let your neighbours know that you'd be away and ask them to check on your house every now and then.
But then again, these days, you cannnot seem to trust anybody.
I do not even trust the guards at my place.
Sigh.
Whatever it is, just be extra careful.

Wish me luck tomorrow !
I hope the people there are nice.

xoxo

rome.

Currently feeling: Nervous
Currently listening to: Rewrite - Sia

I work from 1 p.m. to 10 p.m. today.
It's the after 5 period that I am pretty nervous about.
Oh well.

Annisa and I met up had an early dinner at Cova, The Gardens, yesterday.
She brought some shocking news that left me dumbfounded for a good half an hour or so. I honestly cannot believe how someone can create (and maintain) SIXTY fake profiles and lie to everyone, including her family and friends. That's just so sick. I really do not get why she has to go to that extent. All that time and effort just to lie ?
I am one of the many who were fooled OK. Darn it. All the birthday wishes and messages. I feel so stupid. I'm just stupid, she has mental issues. I feel sorry for her.
I am currently deleting all those non existent people from my friends list.
Gosh, the craziness we're surrounded in this world, eh ?

After enjoying our Vanilla Creme Brulee.

I feel like going back to bed.

xoxo

emergency department.

Currently feeling: Sleepy
Currently listening to: Something Good - Bic Runga

I have been at the Emergency Department since 10 p.m. yesterday.
This would be my first time on the night shift.
So far, it has not been that bad. I guess. Although, I did bug Nor like a million times before midnight to check on this and that. *blushes*
I have been anxious about the queries that doctors would bombard me with, so every single time the phone rang, my heart would feel as if it was gonna go into cardiac arrest.
What's interesting is, I received four calls altogether so far, one of which was a call from a Staff Nurse requesting Simvastatin for a patient. We do not usually entertain orders from wards after 8 p.m., but since I'm nice (haha), I agreed to prepare the order. Do take note that after 8 p.m. there would be no Pharmacy Assistants, so we would have to go down to the Ward Supply to fill in the medications ourselves.
Scary OK.
Oh yeah, the other three calls were from two of the Medical Assistants here, wanting to get to know me. *puzzled*

I have another 1 and a half hours to go.
Please, may it be hassle-free. Aamin !

My tummy's grumbling, I can smell Nasi Lemak. Ooooh, yummy !
Which is funny because I am having a blocked nose. I am shivering in here OK.
There is no Clarinase or Clarityne in this side of the pharmacy so I have to refrain myself from taking Piriton or Actifed unless I wanna drift away into slumberland, on the counter.

Mr. Sunshine accompanied me until 3 a.m just now.
We spoke on the phone when there were no patients.
Poor him, as I would immediately hang up without any warning if a patient suddenly appears. I would call him back after that lah kan.
After Aidiladha, he is gonna be in Hospital Sultanah Nur Zahirah, Kuala Terengganu for 3 and a half months.
That's like 2 hours away from where he is now.

It's confirmed.
I would be in the Tanglin Health Clinic for two months starting next Tuesday.
So, I'd be commuting from Gombak, home sweet home.
Only now I am realizing the importance of owning a car (and knowing how to drive).
I am planning to buy a car, any thoughts on that ?

OK people, wish me luck !

xoxo

choc a block.

Currently feeling: Depressed
Currently listening to: Nothing

Happy 23rd Birthday Feli !
May you be blessed with all the happiness you deserve and many more birthdays to come !
Love you sayang !

Had lunch at TGIF, The Curve with my Gombak people yesterday.
The Curve always looks awesome during Christmas season.
Gan treated me to what he called a Graduation lunch. Thank you so much, dear.
Cheryl gave me my first taste of Dome's Choc-A-Block Espreski which was absolute heaven. Thank you sayang. She insists that I should splurge on Godiva.

The outing was a pretty good pick-me-up.
I needed the hugs and laughs.
I especially needed the comforting words and advice.

You really need to know who you can really trust these days.

I predict a (very) hectic week ahead.
I start work at 7 tomorrow. Will be working the night shift (10 p.m. to 7 a.m.) on Tuesday. I just hope there would be no freaky cases or TDM requests that night. *shivers*
I'd be working next weekend too.
I'd be off on Aidiladha though. I think.
I hope.

According to my schedule, I am supposed to be placed in a Health Clinic for two months starting the 6th of next month.
I still do not know whether that's confirmed.

I have been sinfully stuffing myself with everything and anything edible since my convocation ended.
It's like just because I do not have any occasions or outfit to fit myself into in the near future, I am allowed to indulge !
Crazy.

Work is so depressing.

xoxo

roti cheese.

Currently feeling: Bloated
Currently listening to: Through The Rain - Mariah Carey

Before I start babbling, I would like to wish my dear brother, Marc, a very very Happy Birthday !! He turned 22 yesterday ! Boy, how time flies, it feels like it was just yesterday that we were hitting each other with a broom. Hee.

His birthday fell on the same day I had my convocation, Alhamdulillah. I am now officially a graduate. Hee.

I must have been super excited.

Thank you for being there, Daddy !

I was so touched that she came.

Oh how I miss Nanab.

Wouldn't have got through it without you, babe.

I returned my robe yesterday itself as I was gonna be working today so I could not take extra photos with me in it.
I am still waiting for the photos from Zana's camera.

I was so touched that Akey came.
It was her first time driving to Shah Alam.
She drove me back to Presint 11 last night, and was responsible for forcing me into posing for these photos below. Hee.

I had breakfast and early dinner with Mr. Sunshine today before he headed back to his hometown.
Roti Cheese at Restoran Al-Naz Maju at Presint 9 is the bomb.

That's all for today.
I need to get to bed as I have work tomorrow. Sigh.

xoxo

lunch and dinner.

Currently feeling: Flabby
Currently listening to: Nothing

I just had my dinner.
I had rice. Yes, rice. With chicken.
I was not planning to eat, I was already lying on my (thin) mattress talking on the phone to Mr. Sunshine when my housemates knocked on my door and insisted that I joined them for their late night dinner.
"Lissa jangan tidur lagi tau, kitorang nak masak, Lissa kena makan gak. Kitorang sengaja beli ayam banyak sikit, memang untuk ramai orang makan. Lissa kena makan gak !"

I also had rice for lunch today at the JKWP Pharmacy Scientific Conference *yawns* I attended.

So yeah, I am just hoping I would be able to squeeze into my kebaya this Wednesday.

Speaking of which, I am a bit sad that Marc and Lene are unable to be present to see me (all sweaty, I presume) in my convocation robe. Lene has her Literature in English paper that afternoon and Marc has to send her to school.
Sigh.
Daddy would be there, InsyaAllah. Akey said she would try to make it too.

I guess I can't go to bed just yet.

I wish I did not have to attend tomorrow's session. Blergh.

Nothing much has changed in my working environment.
I still hate it.
So it's best that I keep mum about it.

I am anticipating a get together with my Gombak people next weekend.
I just hope I don't break down in front of them, so I better make sure the word 'work' does not pop up.

Hmm, I love fried anchovies. Nyum.

I need Mummy.

xoxo

weekdays, be gone !

Currently feeling: Sad
Currently listening to: Be Strong - Fefe Dobson

I can't believe it's already Sunday.

I have been pretty occupied since last Friday.
Mr. Sunshine drove down to be with me on my hunt for a kebaya (for my convocation) last Friday, to watch Quantum of Solace along with Diana and her fiancee, Hanan that same night, plus to go to Eizera's wedding and Annisa's 25th birthday party yesterday.

I feel awful as I know he must be very exhausted from the all that travelling (and all the above), but I still had to put him through my sudden bursts of tears every now and then.
Oh sigh.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart, awak.

I wished he did not have to go back.

I wished I do not have to work so that I could just follow him wherever he goes.
Now I know that's a bit irrational, but I abhor my working environment so much that there is not a single moment that goes by without me thinking of quitting.
Sigh.

I am happy that two of my closest friends, Diana and Annisa have finally been introduced to Mr. Sunshine.

Quantum of Solace was not as good as Casino Royale, in my opinion. It did not suck though. Come on lah, how can it suck when it has Daniel Craig in it ? *drools*

I was glad to be able to meet up with some of my classmates at Eizera's wedding, and to hear that most of them are actually enjoying their work.
Good for them.
The wedding was lovely.

Annisa's birthday party was sweet although Mr. Sunshine and I had to make an early exit (we did not even get to eat the birthday cake !). Annisa was gorgeous as usual.
Happy Birthday darling !

Photos are being uploaded on my Facebook as I am typing this, and as I am not in the mood to resize them right now, I would not be uploading them here anytime soon.

I need my Gombak people.
They always know how to lift my spirits up, even if it was just for one night.

I hate Mondays.
And Tuesdays.
And Wednesdays.
And Thursdays and Fridays.
*vomits blood*

Gosh, this blog is in dire need of a happy post.
Unfortunately I don't see that happening for the next 11 months, at least.
*dies*

Okay, bye.

xoxo

passive.

Currently feeling: Low
Currently listening to: Good Morning - India.Arie

I just moved in to my room in Presint 11 yesterday afternoon.
So this morning would be the first day of work on which I did not have to wake up at 5 a.m.
It is definitely much much much less tiring albeit the stress level being the same.
I go to work with Nor, another fellow PRP from UIAM who is a friend of my ex primary schoolmate. I think I mentioned that before, didn't I ?
She (Nor) lives in the same building, just four floors below the floor I live on.

Work has been so-so lah.
The out-patient department is busy most of the time and I am so bloody slow in screening the prescriptions. Although some of the FRPs tell me that it's normal to be slow in the beginning, I cannot help but feel like the dumbest person there.
Sigh.

Hold on.
There's an incoming call from Mr. Sunshine !

OK. I think he is mad at me for not having anything substantial to eat today.
I had biscuits awhile ago and I am not the least hungry at all.
I had dinner yesterday and I still feel stuffed.
Plus all I can think of right now is going to bed.

It is pretty cool to have a room all to myself.
There are a few more things I need to buy for this room. But all that has to wait until I get my second pay. I have not even gotten my first, and there's already so much future spending to do, and not to forget debts to pay.
*dies*

OK, I am not exactly in a very good mood right now (when am I ever in a good mood, you might ask, but I do have my happy spurts).
I have realized that the more people I get to know, the more I learn that we are all surrounded by a good bunch of insensitive assholes.
It doesn't matter how smart you are (or how smart you think you are), there is a HUGE difference between positive criticism and demotivating remarks.
You don't just lash out at someone just because she's soft spoken or not as aggressive as you are. You've got to face the fact that some of us are slower than others, not stupid, just slower.
And at your age, shouldn't you already know that each and every one of us come with different characters and personality ? Not everyone are extroverts like you.
To see you undermining someone (who I happen to know all this while as quite a jovial person) to the point of them breaking down is absolutely absurd.
Are you aware about what other people think about you or what they say about you behind your back ?
You (and whoever's in the same league) are just ridiculous.
Sheesh.

Lene will be sitting for her SPM starting tomorrow !
I know she'll do awesome. *smiles*
All the best little sister !
I know she's 17, but she'll always be my little sister.

Have a good week ahead, people.
Goodnight.

xoxo

sixty four.

Currently feeling: Worried
Currently listening to: Nothing

Daddy turns 64 today !
Well, actually he turned 64 yesterday (imagine that, two of the most important men in my life share the same birth date !) but his official birth date is today as arwah Atok registered his birth a day after.
Anywayyyyy,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CANDY MAN !!

Stay around forever, please ?

xoxo

dearest encik gigi besar ku.

Currently feeling: Anxious
Currently listening to: Nothing

HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!

You're finally 23 !
Haha.

I LOVE YOU.
I MISS YOU !

Love banyak banyak and lots of sloppy kisses from,
Saya yang comel. *smiles*

xoxo

tension head.

Currently feeling: Exhausted
Currently listening to: Disturbia -Rihanna

What's wrong with me?
Why do I feel like this?
I'm going crazy now
It's a thief in the night
To come and grab you
It can creep up inside you
And consume you
A disease of the mind
It can control you
It's too close for comfort

Hello.
I was down with fever with cough and flu just before Deepavali. Oh, and a terrible persisting headache.
I mentioned to the doctor about my ongoing headaches and she told me it's most probably just tension headache.
So I guess until I learn to relax and not to get all flustered every day at work, I would have to live with this silly aching head of mine.
*straight face*

A few delayed Raya pics coming along.
Syawal ended too soon lah, I didn't get the chance to celebrate Raya with Annisa, Baby and a few other people like I wanted to.

Raya at Aunty Maziey's.

This was after countless shots, under Aunty Maziey's request. Hehe.

So when can we continue eating again ?

He wants to crash at my non existent Putrajaya pad.

I love Raya cookies. Oh wait, I just love cookies.

Uncle Phillip (Khaleed) and Uncle Francis.

My favourite. *smiles*

Told you.

At Batu Pahat after meeting his parents.

Raya at The Best Friend's place.

The Pharmacy Department's Raya celebration.

The PRPs.

Hanif's simple yet sweet wedding.

My darling Stumpy. (My roots need touching up)

OK maybe 'a few' wasn't the appropriate word to use. Haha.

I missed Deepavali at Barath's, which was pretty disappointing as I always look forward to catching up with my Gombak people and indulging in yummylicious mutton curry (and sweet anything). Sobs.

I haven't studied for the exam this coming Monday.
I am so gonna flunk it but as Mr. Sunshine puts it, "Buat apa beli buku mahal mahal if nak ambil exam sekali je ?"
Hee.

I miss my Sunshine.
We haven't seen each other for a month already !
Lama tak tatap gigi besar nya itu. *sad smile*

I'll be in the Out Patient Department next month.
I just want this year to be over and done with as soon as possible.
Aamin.

xoxo