hey you, i love you.

Good morning.
I am still sniffing and coughing. Yeah, it has been a week now. Bouts of fever come every now and then. But it's really the sniffing and sneezing that I cannot stand the most. I feel as though my whole brain is clogged up with mucus.
Haha I just had a mental picture of that. Disgusting nya.
There are times it's a bit difficult to breathe, but I am assuming it's because of the lack of physical activity.
I happily went to work yesterday morning, only to feel like passing out (I blame the face mask I had to wear) and be chased ordered told to go back home in the afternoon. I was even told to not come back to work unless I really am free from influenza-like symptoms.
"Eh, kenapa awak datang kerja, saya tak suruh pun."

-________-

I had trouble sleeping last night.
Hence me waking up at 7 *yawns* when I know I should be resting and sleeping this fever off.
I could not stop thinking of a friend's younger sister (my junior in Hillcrest) who lost her husband (who was also my junior) yesterday.
It was a tragic loss.
I found out about what happened to arwah last Sunday night when a mutual friend texted me telling me to recite the doa for arwah, who was presumed to be drowned on his trip to Janda Baik that day.
Search efforts were stopped that night would resume the next morning.
The first thought that came to my head was about arwah's wife and his four kids (at that time I thought they only had two kids).
When Marc told me they finally found arwah's body yesterday morning, I felt this huge punch in my chest.
I do not know them that well, but my heart goes out to the wife and kids.
I can only imagine what they're going through right now.
To lose someone you depend on in such a way at such a young age. :'(
I pray she stays strong.
Al-Fatihah.

Correct me if I am wrong, but mati lemas itu salah satu mati syahid kan ?

That's life for you.
He brings you to life. And He can take you back anytime He wants.

I definitely learnt that the hard way. :'(

Although we might not notice, somehow we tend to take life and the lives of others around us for granted at times.
From simple actions like lashing out at someone for insignificant reasons, not replying text messages when you can and should, to passing judgments/remarks about people you barely know (fitnah is a huge sin) or cutting ties with relatives/siblings.
Sometimes we're too consumed with our busy lives that we forget that we might not get that tomorrow or that second chance.

Have you hugged your Mum lately ?
Have you told your Dad how much he means to you ?
Have you apologized to your sister for yelling at her this morning ?
Have you told you husband/wife/fiance/fiancee how much you appreciate their presence in your life ?
Have you made that call you promised to make to your best friend ?
Have you prayed ?

My heart aches for you. Al-Fatihah.

Sigh.

Being human, no one can escape from making mistakes.
Some might think they're better from others; spiritually, religiously, financially or intellectually.
But we must remember that in His eyes, we're all the same.
What differentiates us is our niat and actions.
Praying five times a day does not guarantee you Jannah (heaven) if you go around bad-mouthing others.
Tak perlu nak menjatuhkan hukum dekat orang, itu bukan hak dan tugas kita.
But saling mengingati memang harus.
Feeling superior from others (riak, takbur) is already such a huge sin.
Your bachelors degree means nothing if you go around boasting about your grades, ignoring other people's feelings.

This world and universe is a gift, and this whole life is a test.
A test of faith and love.
He showers you with money, what are you doing with it ?
He gives you akal, are you putting it to good use ?
He takes away the luxuries you once had, do you give up ?

Rezeki itu bukan dari segi duit sahaja.
Your family is your rezeki. Alhamdulillah.
Love is your rezeki. Alhamdulillah.
Your job is your rezeki. Alhamdulillah.
Your friends are your rezeki(s). Alhamdulillah.

Whatever we believe in, I am sure it all boils down to the same core.

Oh boy, I am sorry to have nagged this long (and probably put most of you to sleep), but I am writing this to serve as a reminder to myself.
Because we're all here for a purpose, and I am still working on mine.
Insha'Allah.

xoxo