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Thursday, August 26, 2010

they say time heals everything, but i'm still waiting.

Happy birthday Mummy.
You would be 60 if you were still around.
And tomorrow, it will be 4 years since you left us.
I miss you so much that it (literally) hurts, especially since it's halfway through Ramadhan and Aidilfitri is just around the corner. :'(

This will be the fifth Aidilfitri we will be celebrating without you. I just can't lie,but things will never be the same without you around.
Daddy misses you. He's doing alright, but he's alone for most parts of the day. I hope my transfer application will be approved as soon as possible so that I can be nearer to him. Ameen.
Marc's doing good. He's  a lot wiser now. You would be so proud of him, I know I am. He's no longer naughty little Marc. :)
Marlene's growing up to be a beautiful, smart and strong woman, just like you. She resembles you so much !
I am in the hands of a good man right now. Alhamdulillah.
It's such a pity that he did not get to see how beautiful you were as a mother and a person.
I'm sure you would have loved him. He's sweet and hilarious. :)
I have gained great new friends, and lost a few insignificant ones.
I have learned so much over these four years. Alhamdulillah.

There's so much more that I want to tell you about.
I miss having you sit on the living room sofa and listen to me babble on and on.
Sometimes I have old videos with you in it on repeat just so I can listen to your voice.
I still cry myself to sleep at times, but Mr Sunshine is always there to the rescue. Alhamdulillah.

I miss you.
I miss you.
Al-Fatihah.

xoxo

10 comments:

N.S. said...

Al-fatihah.

eka zahid said...

Al-Fatihah.

I hope ur transfer application will be approved too..Insyaallah.

mynn said...

al-fatihah to ur mother.
hmmm..i know how it feels. sigh.
be strong ok? :)

zanariah said...

be strong,,take care ya..

rodhiah_rahman said...

Al-Fatihah...
be strong, kay... to be honest, i didn't want to ask for ur transfer to be approved so soon, (heh, u know why) but i know u have a very strong reason to hope so.. so for you, i pray it will be approved soon too... insya Allah :)

Red Clutch said...

kuatkan semangat... even reading this pun i sedih... everything about family mesti menyentuh perasaan... my friend pun her mum just passed away a few day b 4 ramadan and i x da courage to comfort her... i just sms her.. coz bila dgr suara dia i yg nangis...

so, dlm bulan ramadan yg mulia ni... hope u and my other friend to b strong...

i just can say... going through it, i know it's so much pain...

Al fatihah...

Melissa said...

Thanks all. You guys are awesome. Hugs. :)

Extra hugs for Mynn. :)

freespirited12 said...

hi there!

i told my mom about you losing your beloved mummy (i really hope you don't mind) and she told me to tell you that you should never feel bad about not getting over losing her.

you can move on with life, but if you never get over the fact that mummy is gone, it is okay.

my mom lost her mom some 14 or 15 years ago and she still tears when she talks about her mom. and my mom was already married with kids at that time. but she still never quite got over it.

so, be strong my dear. time will heal. but even if it doesn't, no one can tell you to get over it. no one should.

because like one of your previous posts, they didn't lose their mother.

i wouldn't have been as strong as you.

*hugs*

Melissa said...

Thank Haneesa. I guess you're right. Losing a parent is never easy to get over.
I hope I'm getting there.
Thanks again. Hugs !

Melissa said...

*Thanks